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Jesse: i moved my blog...hope all can go to the new one...thankies~!!
Buggie: Cool... havent come visit your blog for quite sometime, now so nice liao xD
RiVeR: *pass by* *waves* :D
Colin: have u seen Interview with the Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles by brad pitt and tom cruise?if u havent u should or u could see blade, action vampire show something like underworld.
Buggie: Omggg... Bun Bun so cuteeeeee!!!!!!!
colin: much hate and anger i sense in jess
Jesse: *wuv* buggie
Jesse:
Buggie: Hurhur... buggie is here =P
Jesse: /e4 I'm nub ma
Zul: omg RAM processor also don't know... /e5
Jesse: I'm not pvping anymore...^^ Don't kill my mage! Tiryth!
Colin: hey since we are in the same crossrealm group, if u ever see a Gnome mage call Edoreana,dont kill her :DD thats me :p
sparkle: am around the neighbourhood today with new years wishes as I travel bravejournal today so am Wishing you and yours wisdom and all greatest 2007 and beyond
Balance: Do the right thing this year! Wish those you meet a wonderful holiday by saying the holiday you do celebrate! (Click on this link to learn more!)
Jesse: =.="
zul: i love u too!!!
Zante: muahahahhahaha, finally got back this url, gay gay~!
Bug: I'm back!! xD
RiVeR: boys also got g-string one wat :P u post them in forum ba *evil*
Jesse: babe...all of us have anger deep inside...j00 all n0t admiting it /gg
ring: i suddenly felt my nick is stupid lol
zul: Fear leads to Anger. Anger leads to Hate. Hate leads to suffering.
RiVeR: /kis
Bug: meeepit
RiVeR: OMG... u really trained till 60... *respect*
Jesse: Die please Zullie...Orlie is my Mr. Handsome
Zul: orlando bloom is gay /ok
Colin: Naka diam
RiVeR: singapore idol is like so gone case...can`t even fight with amerian lo
Jesse: =O One day after my post you lost the baby!!! T_T *heartbroken*
Ron: u can always make a new zunte/zunlie /gg
Zantezuken: nUuUuUuUuUuuu...my zunte/zunlie gone!!!!! =(
Zul: not pregnant anymore...
Zul: *hugs*kiss**fondle*e2e8*
Ron: passby .. passby anyway don listen to stupid colin.. wat take sg citizenship.. =.= u got pr and msia citizen, nice ma.. he sot.. he so like become sg citizen, ask him go bah.zul: u cannot simply touch ok.. u belong to zante's somemore u pregnant d.. so .. u know la
Bug: Sei zullie... dun simply touch!
Zul: *hugs**kiss**fondle**e2e8*
Jesse: =O J00 all Spamm3rs!!! *hugz*
Thor: I'm here I'm here~~!! e8e8
Bug: =PpPpPpPp
Zantezuken: gay gay gay~~!!
Hong: Happy birthday =)ops 1st timer clicking on ur blog =p
Jesse: thanks ^^~
RiVeR: happy BiRtHdAy
RiVeR: aiks jesse!!!! i going to watch X-men3 later...STROM STILL ROX
Jesse: LOL...thanks guys /kis
Bug: Bug was here... Bug was here...xD xD xD
Zul: apa tfk me pulak =.="
RiveR: haha like ur one on the dictionary it ROX!!!
Colin: really mah,becoming a singaporean got more benefits than being a malaysian /heh

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Monday, June 4th 2007

11:52 AM

New Blog Address

Well, I've been wanting to move my blog for some time now...and I've finally set this place up. It's in my personal website so I can have more creative control over the design and functions-which includes advertising, polls and forums. I'm gonna work on putting a tagboard soon altho the rest of the other functions can wait until I really need em.

I thought about shifting all the older entries over...but my old blog has one and a half years worth of entries-thats A LOT! So I'm just gonna link my old blog on the LINKS and you guys can always refer back there for older entries.

I hope you all will support my new blog ^^

Arigato!
lub
jesse

New Blog: http://jessedeke.com/blog
Old Blog: http://jessedeke.bravejournal.com
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Sunday, June 3rd 2007

3:02 PM

Am I A Guinea Pig?

Governments and other companies have been using HUMANS as guinea pigs for DECADES-with or without their knowledge...

...yes, most cases (the high profile ones at least) stem from USA...but doesn't mean other countries don't have...in fact I would argue that USA gets the most coverage BECAUSE they got freedom of speech (and their cases are more interesting since they are the *cough*superpowaofthefreeworld*cough*)

Nice site...http://www.wanttoknow.info/humanguineapigs

I think, to a certain extent, everyone is a guinea pig...culture and socialization already "mould" us to learn what is acceptable or not...whether we REALIZE it or not...so biological weapons/influences isnt that far off really.

At the very least...I don't wanna be one of those ignorant ppl who just accept everything without question. Okay...maybe a little paranoid abt conspiracies...but hey, better than ignorances I say.

Meow~
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Tuesday, May 29th 2007

1:55 PM

Our Birthday

I was quite surprised when my bf took me out for my birthday and my gal frens Eileen and Feng Zhen were at the restuarant too...We usually dont celebrate bdays cept for dinner outside.

There was cheese omelette and mango ice cream cake involved...heavenly XD

Today is his birthday (30th--2days after mine) so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY! He is prolly on the way to the airport now for his holiday to Hong Kong. Shit, my mum is gonna scold me coz I just checked my phone and she called half a dozen times (i left my phone at home when i went to meet my bf)

Jensen Ackles is so uber hot...I mean, I had a thing for the younger [Supernatural] brother Jared Padalecki when he was in Gilmore Girls back when I was like 16 or something. But Dean (Jensen's character) is so macho he makes Jared (ironically he played Dean in Gilmore Girls) look like a sissy...altho Jared is too hot to be a sissy--sigh they are both hot. I love Jensen's attitude...totally bad-ass but he is a nice guy. Awww...

What is it with guys named Dean?

I'm done with all my Supernatural DVDs but its only until, like, half the second season so I'm dling the rest of the season now (which is also why I cant login WoW)...can't wait! Hmm...I think my LAST celeb crush was Orlando Bloom...that was years ago in lotr/1stpirate days...Well at least I have him to keep my mind off things while my bf is away /gg

I'm left with...The L Word (4 seasons) and The OC (season 4)
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Sunday, May 27th 2007

1:36 AM

Holiday Plans

Well, I'm done with [Heroes] season 1...great show...too bad no cute guys lor.

I'm working my way through [Supernatural] season 1 and 2.

I've decided to stop raiding...I stopped my WoW subscription too. Funny story actually...I did it by accident but hey I figured its probably a sign or something. Meanwhile, I'll just farm for gold coz I still need 5000gold for my epic mount. I'm at around 1.3k now.

I did figure out how to put on makeup tho...I spent quite a bit on them. I still need to buy mascara coz my current one is like a million years old and not working too well.

It's my birthday tomorrow...I don't have any plans. Maybe buy a tub of icecream and curl up watching dvds with my Eeyore. But then, I'll have to spend money on the icecream. I'm so broke.

Here are some photos of a little bugger named Dino...


POSING:






Dino's Birthday Cake


Dino and his mum Debbie


Dino, me and my bf (very blur picture T_T)


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Friday, May 25th 2007

11:37 PM

Exam Results

Name : ONG YIT SIN
Matric No : U050668X

2006/2007 Sem 2 Examination for ARTS AND SOCIAL SCIENCES 2

Module Code Module Title Grade
EN2113  Reading Film and Cultural Texts  B- 
IT1001  Introduction to Computing 
LSM1303  Animal Behaviour 
NM2218  Critical Introduction to Gaming  C+ 
SSA1201  Singapore Society  B+ 
CAP: 3.22
(CAP computed is accurate based on progress & declaration made as at time of printing.)
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Tuesday, May 15th 2007

3:12 AM

New Favourite Authors

Ok, so I mentioned about Anita Blake a couple of blog posts ago...now I'm into another author as well---Janet Evanovich.

The similiarities for both is that the leads are both females (often with guns) altho Hamilton's Anita Blake series has a more supernatural element in it and much more sex. Evanovich is more light-headed fun as the lead is a bounty hunter (who is more lucky than tough.) Both series have 2 love interests for the leads. Blake has a werewolf and a vampire lover(s) while Plum has a hot bounter hunter and a cop...nice fantasies for girls. But the best part is that the plots are focused on mysteries and supernatural/crime developments rather than just love stories...I'm not a love story kind of gal.

I haven't read this much since I was in secondary school. Through JC and university years I never had the time to read much for pleasure. I'm glad I'm doing the catching up now...can't always be stuck on wow eh?

If I had the cash I would buy all the books in the below series...IMO good books should be kept and re-read (not all the time but after a while.) I do this for my Tamora Pierce books since I'm a teenager (and have to spend half my allowance on a single book QQ) but hey good books are worth it.

Laurell K. Hamilton

Anita Blake series

   1. Guilty Pleasures
   2. The Laughing Corpse
   3. Circus of the Damned
   4. The Lunatic Cafe
   5. Bloody Bones
   6. The Killing Dance
   7. Burnt Offerings 
   8. Blue Moon 
   9. Obsidian Butterfly
  10. Narcissus in Chains
  11. Cerulean Sins
  12. Incubus Dreams
  13. Micah
  14. Danse Macabre
  15. The Harlequi

Janet Evanovich

Stephanie Plum Series

    * One For the Money
    * Two For the Dough
    * Three to Get Deadly
    * Four to Score 
    * High Five
    * Hot Six
    * Seven Up
    * Hard Eight
    * Visions of Sugar Plums
    * To the Nines
    * Ten Big Ones
    * Eleven on Top
    * Twelve Sharp
    * Plum Lovin'
    * Lean Mean Thirteen

    * The Last Peep (A Stephanie Plum Short story included in Mary Higgins Clark presents The Plot Thickens) (1997)

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Sunday, May 13th 2007

2:24 PM

Back from Therapy

The last week I pretty much went MIA for a while...took a little break...got a little me time.

Spent Saturday and Sunday in Johor with my grandparents and bf for my gonggong's birthday (he's 71)...that weekend alone did a lot for me on the healing meter. I'm glad I decided to go.

Still got...oh 2 and a half months of holiday. I gotta make a "to do list" if not I'll never get things done...
Currently on my list would be:

-pick up my contact lens
-think of a bday prezzie
-go highlight my hair
-get a tan (i look like a ghost QQ)
-go shopping for clothes and cosmetics
-finish all the DVDs we bought in Johor (L word, OC, Heroes, Supernatural...@@)

i dun know how im gonna get enuff cash for all that...LOL
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Monday, May 7th 2007

8:55 PM

The Single Life

I wake up before dawn everyday...hell, on most days for the past 5 years i sleep at dawn.
I no longer get stuck to my computer...if anything im trying to avoid it as much as possible.
There is so much DAMM free time...just today I've done the following all before noon:
-read 2 NOVELS
-taken a BATH (not a shower)
-read a novel IN the bath
-NOT login wow
-petted the dog
-painted my nails (well cept for my left hand)
-made plans to get new contact lens, do my hair and...
-EXERCISE!

FUCK! I hate being single.





















Exercise my ass...
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Saturday, May 5th 2007

12:24 PM

I Want You To Disappear

Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Every single time I want you
It's like its fucking wrong

I'm sick of trying
To keep denying
That it'll be all fine
When I don't even have what is mine

I was the bad one
I'm not the bad one
Who is the one who changed?
I could be the bad one
I think about it every night
But in the end...I don't call him

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

I'm sick of trying
To keep denying
Temptation every night
When I want what's mine...and more

I was the bad one
I'm not the bad one
Who is the one who changed?
I could be the bad one
I think about it every night
But in the end...I don't call him

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I want you to disappear
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Friday, May 4th 2007

5:46 PM

Power Trip

Ok...so as expected, there are politics involved in being an officer. Frankly, politics doesn't concern me on a guild level because I know I have people who support me when I need help and I also know that the other officers don't do shit so they can't whine about things I do...

Politics in Team B is very...disheartening.

Firstly, because its our own people-as both officers and members.
Secondly, because no matter what we do...some people are going to be pissed.
Thirdly, because they can't take the heat of being an officer.

Yes, I posted the proposal that WE came up with together. And I do NOT see anything fucking wrong with the proposal (altho maybe posting it wasn't a good idea.) Sure, some members whine about not being a main raider...but that's normal. Honestly, I think sticking with the proposal is better...why? At least there are visible changes (even if its some that ppl hate) not hiding the problems under the rug and whining about how difficult it is to invite people to raids.

Pretty much this issue boils down to the fact that poi cannot take the fact that he doesn't know how to make a stand to members. The reasons for them not being a main raider are present...you just don't wanna recognise it in the face of them tulan at you...or worse, don't wanna be the one to tell em.

If you want me to take the heat for this mess-I will. But at the end of the day will the situation improve? Even if we scrap the whole idea Team B WILL NOT PROGRESS. Why? Because firstly all the issues still remain and secondly, you lost authority with members by being a wussy.

Being an officer isn't about pleasing everyone. My situation with tap, poi's situation with susu and the tons of ppl who don't like Jahat and Phanta are testimony to that. Critism is part of the job title...and my policy is that if members give real suggestions on how to improve (instead of just whining) yes I will listen and consider it...and I won't take personal issues to raid level and still value them in the team.

THAT is what being an officer is about-can you do that?

And no, the members in question are NOT good in attitude and if you are talking about skills I can definitely list out better ones...as for gears how fucking hard is it to gear up? There are other ppl gearing up for raids too. Take mages for example...Kenz dps is better than wing's...the problem is controlling dps but even in that aspect he is way better than Buhbye who doesn't bother to dl KTM and aggros....but the worse part is still not dling KTM...same deal with prieste not dling decursive-don't be biased just because they come for raid often (and dont forget WHY they come for raid-gear not progress)

LET ME REMIND YOU THAT THESE PEOPLE DO NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT RAID PROGRESS AND ONLY WANT PERSONAL LOOTS.
Their attitude already prove that...frankly, such ppl piss me off...even poi is like that when he was a member and afraid he won't get in raid...IMO we should not forget our own roots and problems we had as members and, as officers, TRY our best to avoid the situation for fellow members coz we are responsible for all of them not just the whiny few.

Don't forget how hard it was for you to get in raids...how you got to be officer in the first place.
Because once you forget yourself in favor of raid progress, you don't deserve to be officer coz we have to put members first...all of them not just a few selected ones.

The argument about raid progress can be broken down and annilated...
1. problem members aren't interested in raid progress...all they want is a guarentee spot when they DECIDE to come for raid. How can I prove this? Look at ppl like takecare and terrorblades who do not complain and support us fully by voting...THIS is the kind of members we should keep.
2. gears-can be geared up relatively easy for kara...uncle already has a better weapon than me and almost complete his set...his gear will be better than mine soon. Kenz as well. Gears aren't an excuse for picking members. because no matter how good the gears if your attitude sarks and all you go for raid is to get gears then THESE people WILL LEAVE when they dont get what they want...whiners already prove that.
3. attendance issues will remain-scrapping the whole proposal is fine with me but it will NOT solve problems...instead, you'll get more coz these ppl know they have their way and will just come and go as they please as usual. All I can say is compare them to ppl like takecare and officers attitude. They don't need the gear but come anyway. I know MY gear can go finish Gruul edi. I don't need to spend the repair bill, pots and frustration unlike you guys...ppl who do this like takecare and wing truly are the ones who care abt progress.

You wanna keep these few members only and not invite any new people is digging your own grave coz our current ppl are the problem ones. Lets face it the only way to make up for irregular attendance is to have more ppl available. Also, what you gonna do when these ppl leave? You gonna have a bigger problem justifying yourself to newer members when you have no more ppl to come raid and they are all you have left.

As for Team A issues, yes the officers went over to help. I am aware of this and also aware that now that they down prince the FOCUS is on Team B...they will come help us. If you really want to argue for progress then you should accept ppl like susu in...and Count, Jahat as well. But I know that you wont let that happen.

I am not asking for everyone to have a raid spot-as idealistic as I am I know that is not possible. But I do NOT agree with keeping only the current few-esp those problem members. I can TELL you that their attitude is bad...that they only suck up to you coz they want the LOOTS. You wanna prove it? Ask them to pass item like Xandeloras...see they will leave Team and guild anot...I can practically GUARENTEE it. Their attitude is not like Bing or myself or other better members who are willing to let raid progress more than personal progress. This situation already prove that-how can you justify putting bara as main when he lags like hell and keep dc? The fact is we already invite him whenever he can come...he is a liability and we keep him and now we getting blame for that? This is the guy who leveled with me so yea I thought he was a nice guy too...but frankly I'm tired of pemburu's and bara's male ego which can't accept the fact that THEIR PRIVELEGES (of being in raid) IS NOT THEIR RIGHT AND IT'S AT THE EXPENSE OF OTHER MEMBERS OF THE RAID. Yet do they care? No, they only care about themselves and that they won't get spot...they wont give up their spot or loots for raid progress.

That's a result of being biased...well partially. Mostly is because ppl all wanna guarentee their spot to be 100% theirs whenever they CHOOSE to show up. So even if they show up and we need other ppl they are gonna whine. You can't please everyone but seriously, is it worth it to please this kind of ppl over other members who deserve the shot? Don't forget about your time as a member...how did YOU feel?

Just don't let the power trip of being an officer make you forget what it's like to be a member...also, don't forget that officer's obligation is not just to ppl who can be useful to us...is to all members. Sure, we cannot give everyone a chance to raid but to shut out all possibilities is only even more unfair than the current proposal which affect oni 2 members.

Team A works with fixed group because they know each other in RL and call each other to find out about raid timings and force ppl to online...the officers are pretty firm in that and NO ONE questions them (which is why the susu issue w/ poi). We can never reproduce this for Team B coz members are just not dedicated enough...with Odin ppl there is the possibility of doing this but overall I think its a plan that looks better on paper than in RL.

We cannot be indecisive and fight among ourselves...the proposal was the result of us deciding a firm direction for the team. And that is the way to go (not the proposal but the decisive thingy) Officers cannot keep change their gameplan...they need to fix it and MAKE ppl do it instead of bowing down when ppl whine. Take a lesson from odin...last time how many ppl vote attendance? How many did not want a fix team? How many disobey and post in RO-G? What did our committee do? Sure, there was albie but we aren't albie and for the most part they stood firm to their beliefs and imposed them on members-for the greater good. If they keep scrapping every idea coz 1 member complain we would be like other guilds. Hard facts but true. I'm not saying how they ran things is totally great but it works. Even tho sometimes committee have to play the bad guy. if not jeez wont get his ebil title.

So now the question is what is going to happen next? Which will have more progress? Give in? Try new plan? Stick with plan?

Remember that either options you gonna have ppl who are not happy. IMO we should put raid progress over whiners (if they really care about raid they would give proper suggestions not just complain) so which option will progress more?

Fuck this is the longest essay I have ever written...I really need my emo ppl back.
Also, I would appreciate it is no one responds to this on my blog...its a Team issue and we'll deal with it among ourselves. This is my ranting space...so if anything find me on msn or in game.

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